it’s okay. really.

I guess I’m pret­ty de­pressed.

Crowd: “How de­pressed ARE you?”

I’m think­ing of do­ing stand-up at one of the next open mics.
 

My skin gets pret­ty dry, so most of my rou­tine re­volves around stay­ing hy­drat­ed and us­ing a heavy mois­tur­iz­er. I ro­tate be­tween like three dif­fer­ent brands de­pend­ing on the sea­son. I al­most nev­er use foun­da­tion ex­cept for job in­ter­views and es­pe­cial­ly fan­cy oc­ca­sions. Also I’m very pale so I can only wear brands that make a col­or white enough for me.

I’m not very phys­i­cal­ly abled or good with weapons, but I have been teach­ing my­self in­fos­ec and am fa­mil­iar with the ba­sics of build­ing ex­plo­sives.

Pic­tures of me from my teens and ear­ly 20s look like I am al­ways slight­ly shrug­ging or lean­ing for­ward, but re­al­ly that’s just how my spine was shaped, and I would be­come frus­trat­ed when peo­ple told me, “Don’t slouch, stand up straight!” I was like, “I have sco­l­io­sis. This is as straight as it goes, dude.”

Af­ter a lit­tle more than a decade of semi-reg­u­lar yoga prac­tice and a will­ing­ness to con­sis­tent­ly car­ry my body in new un­com­fort­able ways, it’s kind of crazy to look at my­self and see how far it has come. I still have pain in my back, but it’s so mi­nor com­pared with how much I car­ried with me be­fore.

Any­way, this is just a re­minder that it’s ok if you’re not ex­act­ly where you want to be. You have prob­a­bly ac­com­plished more than you re­al­ize. ❤

—bwargh von mod­nar

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