Hey so nobody fucking asked, but I’m not fat because I binge ate to deal with my traumas. I’m fat because a doctor put me on a very strong steroid as a child, stunting my growth and changing the way my body holds fat.
I was heavier because a doctor put me on an absurd dose of Zoloft, and the months spent unable to do much because of withdrawal, on top of having already spent a year and a half on a drug that fucked with my weight, on top of some of the most stressful months of my life immediately prior to withdrawal, it came together.
I lost weight just living my life, but yeah, still fat.
It’s fine that you’re thin and you want people to stop being mean to fat people. But saying shit like “don’t body shame because there’s a strong correlation between weight/binge eating and trauma” just fuck off.
Not all weight is binge eating weight.
People don’t need to respect my humanity and experience in this body because it’s been sad and I’m sad. People need to respect my humanity and experience in this body because I AM A HUMAN and I KNOW MY EXPERIENCE IN THIS BODY BEST.
You want to see respect for us? Fucking ask us what it looks like. Ask us our stories, and accept that not everyone wants to tell it or has a story. Don’t talk over us about how we aren’t lazy, we’re just traumatized. Everyone has trauma and yet NOT EVERYONE IS FAT.
WEIRD. It’s almost like the causes of fat are a complex combination of factors including GENETICS?!
—melony ppenosyne
Flommist Melony Ppenosyne is a writer and weird artist type. In the last year alone, she’s traveled to Virginia as a competing poet, co-written a play on mental illness that is presently being produced, and crafted a published essay checking the privilege and scope of art galleries. Copyright © 2019 Melony Ppenosyne.
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