In the past few days, I’ve spoken to several people about how hard it feels to do anything right now.
One friend said to me that she feels like she and her husband rarely do anything other than “regular life maintenance stuff” and yet it seems like they haven’t had very much down time at all, and she has no idea how she used to fit everything in when she had to leave the house for work, iron clothes, shop for groceries …
I told her I think part of it is the whole state of the world taking its toll on people and making every task, no matter how small, just seem so daunting and insurmountable and exhausting.
Another friend told me that having to deal with even just one especially difficult person in her life makes her completely worn out and that she has has no energy after she sees said person to do anything at home.
Which I completely get.
Under “normal” circumstances (I don’t even know what those are anymore, I don’t think they exist) if I went through something like that, I’d at least be able to walk away from it and come down in a reasonable amount of time instead of feeling zapped until I went to bed and hopefully felt better the next day.
Then I was relaying these stories to a third friend over dinner last night and she said, “Yeah, I don’t think we ever did any of that all that well, though.”
She was right.
And I’m able to recognize that it’s definitely very much seasonal depression magnifying everything I’m feeling too, because that happens every year.
When the sun comes up so late and goes down so early, my sense of time and resources and ability to do anything gets warped. I know I should be getting some exercise every day, now more than ever.
But all I want to do is sleep, and rest when I’m awake.
And the waiting music on this webinar is a piano rendition of Radioactive by Imagine Dragons.
—emily duchaine
Flommist Emily Duchaine lives in the Pacific Northwest. She likes to drink mead, learn about sharks, and listen to the Talking Heads. She pretends to be a professional businesswoman most days. Copyright © 2021 Emily Duchaine.
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