Life right now is a whirlwind and I have worked so damn hard for it.
The days pass but there’s hardly time spent taking a break.
I am constantly chasing, capturing, and releasing this wondrous adventure I am on.
People questioned me.
They doubted me.
And still even today believe that the steps I took were wrong.
I guess they can’t understand where I am, what I see. How happy my heart lies in what I’ve built for myself.
The love I have blanketing me and surrounding me, a self love I never had before.
At every turn I felt dependent. Emotionally a mess, a scared innocence that needed protection, and just a stupid, dumb, little girl who had no direction – one of value, at least.
I can list my accomplishments or the things I’ve done to change it all but I no longer feel the need to.
Is that growing up? I finally feel as if I know myself and lead a life truly to myself, honoring my morals and values as much as possible in my pursuit of happiness.
I’m taking flight, and yes the jump was scary, and I went through nightmares, hit rocks and was thrown further than I meant to jump, but dear god, this path – it is mine and so remarkable and I feel so empowered as I press on.
New journeys I feel are to come shortly, ones reaching outside the comfort I know now, but I rest in preparation steadily moving forwards the water flow.
—alley scheffki
Flommist Alley Scheffki is 23 years young, ‘I am the blue rose. Dies ist ein wunsch für freiheit.’ Copyright © 2017 Alley Scheffki.
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