I am battling a continuous capricious disposition towards sleep.
Sometimes I abhor the mental image of my body lying still on a bed for hours. The feeling I have some time later, after I’ve moved my body from my bed to anywhere else, is utter confusion. I am a conscious being with a heightened awareness of my surroundings, developed over many years, since my early childhood, and yet, at times of high stress, there seems to be a small void in the playback of my day.
Dreams are always welcome to my subconscious and yet the interruption of my consciousness resonates deeply in my thoughts. The human brain and body need the process of sleep at the very least to function and at the very most to thrive. I dislike having my consciousness interrupted and I dislike the idea of it.
The tool I ‘command’ demands itself to be aware of this interruption, and feels negatively towards such a necessity. Human beings are wired to sustain their life, living, but we as a society both promote and ignore the time involved with the process of sleep. Do we need eight hours every night? We have cities and lights and less fear of the uncertainty of the nights as our ancestors had, and yet, we as a society say, get inside, get into a bed, sleep for eight hours.
My mind says you can be doing. I instinctively know to sleep when tired and to eat when hungry, but the time and place I live in has abundance in these areas. Excessive amounts of food and excessive recommendations of sleeping time. Excessive amounts of ‘doing’ time, as well.
And even with this abundance we deny ourselves and others food and time for sleep. Ideally, I love being a human and would wish to honour my body and my life by giving in to the desire to sleep when tired and the sustenance I need when my body requires it, but there is nearly always something getting in the way …
—blu
Flommist Blu is an enigma. A metaphor wrapped in an allegory. ‘I am Jack’s colon. If I get cancer, I kill Jack.’ Copyright © 2015 mechanizzm. All rights reserved.
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