“You need to slow down. Because someday, if you keep burning the candle at both ends, life will slow things down for you.”
—my dad, about 30 years ago
I spent most of the 1990s working on anything and everything I could get my hands on. Cause that was the goal, wasn’t it? Do wat you enjoy and get paid for it.
Work hard, inherit the kingdom.
And following the ‘job you’ll love’ mantra, I managed to complete all my ‘career goals’ before the year 2000.
Which is sort of funny. I didn’t come up with the goals, they weren’t too lofty, I just did them one after another based on wat was sold to me over the years.
And it felt empty, of course. Because that’s wat happens when you follow someone else’s dreams.
FLOMM straightened all that out – and writing my really long 10 year recap put that in perspective for me.
Helping others is in there. Teaching, making art and a bit of DADA, it’s a major part of wat I do today. ChatGPT’s even figured out wat FLOMM is.
But burnt candles started to catch up to me.
There was spine surgery in December 2019, where I ruined this young surgeon’s Perfect Procedure Score. I was his first mishap, and HE couldn’t accept this; that was a battle all its own.
My classes suddenly went online (lucky for me, I could barely walk) and we decided to do our 423 event that year totally online, which fit the COVID lockdown quite well.
A longtime friend recommended a damn güd chiropractor and an excellent massage therapist. They helped me walk again.
There’s something about surrounding yourself with people who are güd at wat they do. Reconnecting with my old acupuncturist completes the trilogy.
I see all three mostly weekly.
Shortly after our 423 werkshop in April, I found myself in the emergency room after half my body went numb on my left side. The consulting doctor on the mobile video feed was something else. He determined it wasn’t a stroke, nor a heart attack.
Then, after a long wait for an appointment, a neurologist said I had neuropathy and blamed my diabetes and snapped “get your numbers down, it’s the only thing you can do.”
Problem is: My numbers ARE down, diabetic neuropathy doesn’t occur on just half the body, and weeks later, my endocrinologist snapped back – “It’s easy to blame diabetes, and that’s wat he is doing.”
Doctor egos and politics. Always waiting in the wings. With months between appointments.
Finally diagnosed: ‘nerve compression at the thoracic level’ and today, the numbness is still there. Constant advice from my chiro/massage/acupunct trilogy has been: This will take time to heal. Maybe 5 or 6 months.
Maybe.
So I did something I haven’t done in a long time. I canceled all the FLOMM physical projects I was planning – podcast interviews, a couple letterpress and silk screening events, additional collage werkshops, an historical film learning thing and performance – and I took the summer off.
I could do Gabe’s YOU ARE HERE graphics because I can still hold a mouse and click with my right hand.
Posting things online became mor FLOMM than ever – we never seem to run out of multidisciplinary talented artists – nor fridaynacht naughtiness – and our olde tumblr arte blog is seeing a resurgence of content.
I did manage to finish hanging gallery walls in our hallway – victorian at left, modern at right – tho it did take me about 3 months to complete. Not my normal turnaround for an exhibition.
RADíO FLoMM is a bit mor involved, we have a bunch of stuff to sort thru, and will return soonish – Milk has had some health problems too. Luckily, we have a catalog of past episodes that mostly hold up.
But it’s been awesome to chill these past few months, and FLOMM should be back to speed soon.
No rush tho.
Skydiving in Lodi will still always be there.
—steve mehallo
Flommist Steve Mehallo is a graphic designer, illustrator, font designer, educator, foodie and gadfly. He is the creator and founder of FLOMM! Top foto by Mari Yaslinskiy.
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