You know what?
I’m tired of getting stepped on, tossed aside and told I deserve what life has tossed at me thus far. I’ll admit it I haven’t been the best person in the world. I have my flaws. But at this point in my life I’ve seen more of my family and friends die than most my age.
I’ve been subjected to both mental and physical abuse from my parents and even ex-partners. I have depression and anxiety, meaning panic attacks are a thing that happen often as well as points where I don’t want to keep running on my course of life. I’ve tried several times to end my own life over the years, many times a friend caught me before it was too late.
But you know what? I’m over it all. I’m over all this bullshit life has tossed at me thus far.
If it’s one thing I’ve learned is that I’m stronger than most – if not all – of the shit that I’m going through. Knock me down once, I’ll stay down only to get back up and keep moving forward twice as hard.
And you know what? I’m gonna start changing not only my surroundings, but also myself.
So I’m taking things day by day, picking up little tricks to work on my anxiety, eating better, working out, and even setting little reminders for myself for when I’m feeling like there’s no hope (the reminders really help, to be honest).
Gotta admit, so far there’s been positive changes coming my way.
God knows this is long overdue.
—kristin valentine buechler
Flommist Kristin Valentine Buechler is an artist, traveler, and professional dreamer. Copyright © 2016 Kristin Valentine Buechler.
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